the greatest mind of all....

it takes a great mind to do all kinda of things.

a great mind creates. yet a great mind destroyes.

a great mind lead. yet a great mind follows.

a great mind defy. yet a great mind obeys.

a great mind understand. yet a great mind ponder.

a great mind defines. or is a great mind defined.?

a great mind loves. or is a great mind loved.?

a great mind determines. or is a great mind determined.?

who determines the great mind.?

history.? theory.? or logic.?

logic. logic determines the great mind.

JJ's logic.

...........hahahahahahahaha..........

sucks.!

yea. depressed.

sometimes i realli hate this kinda attitude of mine.

i am greedy.

i have little determination.

this is best reflected in mine guitar learning. i play abit of many things. but. ask me to perform a nice complete piece....

yar. i can't.

remember 2 days ago. jiahong and i went to this coffee shop in toa payoh to have dinner. we were carrying our guitar as we justed finished our guitar club practise. as we walked across the coffee shop. one uncle was looking at us. veri interestingly. as we decided to eat there. we put ours stuffs down on the table and looked around. to mine suprise. there is a guitar at the front of the carrot cake stall.

jiahong decided to order carrot cake. 5 mins later. the carrot cake was served. the uncle upon serving the carrot cake asked us abt our guitar.

'issit electric guitar.?'

' nope. its classical guitar. uncle. u play the guitar also right.? is the guitar at the front of the stall yours.?' i replied.

'yar. its mine guitar. a hand-made guitar. i will show it to you.' he said with a beam in his eyes.

upon finishing his sentence. he quickly went to retrieve his guitar and sat down beside us. he first offer me his guitar and asked me to try it. he introduced the guitar as a hand-made guitar made in canada for a price of 300 bucks. he asked me to play something....

********************************

omg. what can i play.?

mine mind turned into a total blank.

than i started doing stupid things on the guitar.

i started playing classical pieces on a acoustic guitar.....

.........romance de amor............

i started playing licks and scales which showed nothing of me.

i felt like i know nothing abt guitar at that point of time.

i felt total shame.

shame on u. JJ.

so. the best way is to return the guitar back to him. upon receiving back his guitar. he said he would play a few songs for me.

he started singing.

his plucking was damn ultra zai.!!!!!

he said he play guitar as a past time hobby. all his skills were self taught and he plays by the ear. by listening.

once again.

shame on u. JJ.

later. a customer came and he had to go and fry his carrot cake. i also decided to end mine meeting with him as it abit late.

i shooke his hand. he introduced himself as dillion. and asked for mine name. he even asked me to drop by often to play guitar with him. but i dun stay in tt area.

i salute him.

uncle dillion. your passion for the guitar has indeed touched me.

so. must start doing something. from now onwards. i am going to start finish learning all the pieces that i learned half-way be it due to wadever reason.

hotal california.

rosita.

romance de amor.

.....and many more.....

end with a quote.

'' music is enough for one's lifetime,
but. one lifetime is never enough for music. ''

depressed.... Rosita is a short piece. but. damn difficult. 

where is the screw-driver.?

mama.! where is the screw-driver ar.?

someone needs screwing up.

its the auntie tt cut my hair this morning. i am screwing her back for screwing up my hair.

wah lau eh. tell u dun cut short. u go and cut short. tell u to trim away all the spiky part. u made it even more spiky. do u know how to cut hair anot.?

yar. emliy. my ah toon is umber cute.

i can sort of visualise emily opening my blog. see ah toon's pic and go....

[in a high and squeaky voice.] oh my GOD. ah toon is so umber cute.

oh my god.!!!!

haiz. ah toon is too cute. wht if one day i have a daughter. and she is not as cute as ah toon.? i cannot imagine....

maybe i will just flush her down the toilet bowl. [juz kidding]

remember the poem i posted last time regarding without love....?

wah. its hard to imagine. but people are stealing it. i can't believe it man. my sis got the poem posted in her blog. when i asked where did she got it from. she sae her friend....

hahahahahahaha.

some people are actually appericating my lousy poem. hm. shld make them pay for copyright.

but. my sis just simply refuse to believe i composed it.

eh.. i am the original composer. k.?

may all my hair drop off i i am lying.

jiahong still sae i acting poetic. maybe i shld write more of those stuffs.

read christ's blog. wow. just checked the polls. his name is leading. all the way man.

aniwae. i wanna thx christ for all this guidance this 5 months. your classical techniques are something i really look forward to mastering. hope i can play rosita after 3 months. i managed to get the tabs for it. think it's quite complete and detailed. wish u all the best for your future. and never let passion for guitar playing die.

having dinner now. continue later.

nice photos.

hm. i juz dun feel like writing anything down today.

so. share a few photos with u guys reading my blog out there.

the first photo is a photo of ah toon.

ah toon is my cousin. she is also the kid i dote on most in this world. i will agree to anithing she ask me to do. my mother started babysitting ah toon since she was 2 months old till she was 2 years old plus. after which my dear ah toon suffered the terrible fate of being put in a childcare.

so poor thing.

the child care teachers are damn fucked-up. they run the childcare like a army.

mine poor ah toon.

if i can have a wish granted one day.

i hope ah toon is my daughter. or at least my real sis.

the second photo consists of my younger sis and younger bro.

they are nice people when they are not evil.

ok. dun wanna sae more already.

the third pic is ah toon and ah fan meimei. both are my cousins. both are cute.

i love both of them.

this is ah fan mei mei. both my cousins.  

yar. my younger sis and my younger bro. 

this is ah toon. my princess. my darling. one of the most important person in my life. 

i am happy boy today.

i am a happy boy today.

lesson was absolutely great. it was realxing. i suppose its because its the first lesson. played a nice game and got to know my classmates better.

my classmates. i got all kinds of people for my classmates. erm. i tink the girls in my class are split up. some are realli veri different. there are a few i would never be able to guess they are in mass comm. they look like JC muggers. there is this chio bu with realli short skirt.

wah.!

where is the tissue paper ar.?

my nose bleeding.

i am a happy boy today.

actually my timetable is realli quite slack. 3 hours today and only 2 hours tml.

hahahahahahaha.

JC people. dun be jealous. u chose the JC path yrself.

serve you guys right for having lessons from 8am to 5pm.

hahahahahahaha.

i am not going to let my mass comm mates know abt my blog. so i can write all kind of evil things abt who i dun like.

i am a happy boy today.

i am condemned by my mum these few days. apparently. she thinks that my hair is too messy. yar. i also agree its too long. need to go cut hair.

wednesday tml. not sure if i am going to guitar club at cj. actually go back also quite useless. end at 3pm. go back also quite late already. and they are practising performances pieces. not sure if i can play for gala concert anot. find out tml.

one last time.

i am a happy boy today. =)

busy days ahead....

if onli everyone is like winnie. sooo generous with blog. thx alot.

yar. i didnt update for one day. i am starting to become a busy man again.

been meeting up with friends this few days. great to know that they are all doing well.

Happy birthday to Khairi and Pamela. we are all 17 years old realli. we are old....

went to play pool today. mr mop angry. coz i won him once with a three ball advantage. hahahaha. lady luck is on my side today. come on lah. u have humiliated me far worst before. nah. i know u are just joking. wah. khairi nearly won me properly. he improved alot. i need to train more.

met mr xiao chun juan today. wah. realise he is reading my blog faithfully. he can even remember the 3 tips to growing taller.... aiya didnt tag for mi.... actually i am also reading other people's blog regularly recently. coz. i am damn free.

i read miss E's blog regularly.
reading her blog makes me realise my language bascially sux. she always uses BIG words. my dictionary is always with me when reading her blog. juz in case.

i read mr YX's blog regularly.
reading his blog makes me realise i am a decent person with little crap. his entries all sometimes funny. slap- slick kinda of funny.

i read mr M's blog regularly.
reading his blog. i realise my lag. didnt noe tt which movie was coming up till i see his blog. and he is sometimes damn poetic.

i read miss G's blog regularly.
reading her blog makes me realise i got no life. wah. she play pool. play bowling. play crab. i got no life at all. she is queen.

i read mr T's blog regularly.
reading his blog makes me doubt my passion for music. mine is nothing compared to him. realli....

yar. these are just a few examples. read some other people's blog randomly.

been playing abit of xbox these few days. playing halo 2. wah. shoot alien till i going giddy. been dreaming abt all these alien trying to attack me. veri scary.

today's weather was damn crazy freaky bloody hell....

HOT.

i am going to suffer from heatstroke.

i have 3 hours of radio lesson tml. wonder wht will happen. just realise my teacher tml is this famous previous deejay. not sure if he is still deejaying now. haven been listening to radio for quite some time already. oh yar. by the way. he is danny yang jun wei.

k. tt's all for today. update tml to talk abt first day of sch.

these are my 3 legendary 'girlfriend' 

orientation+soma=20/5/05

yesterday was ok.... went for orientation at ngee ann in the morning and soma wth my cj mates at night.

all right. orientation. bascially the poly system is still pretty much the same as the normal system tt we are all used to. we still have a class. a form teacher we call the advisor. practical lesson we call the workshop. lectures and tutorials.

my class has got 22 people. hm. more girls than guys. they all seem quite nice people. but some realli dun look like mass commers. one classmate i spoke to came from victoria. guess how many points he got for L1R5.?

8 points.

i got a feeling my 13 points is the lousiest among the class. i sat with this girl when we first gathered. and she kinda pissed me off. guess wht is the first question she asked me other than my name.?

so.. why did u come to mass comm....?

wah lau eh.!

interview ar.? screw you lah.

nvm. my class got chio bu. mass comm year 2 got even more chio bu. its seems like ngee ann student dun like mass commers generally. guess why.?

coz. we are suppose to be arrogant. speak english with a disgusting slang~. our girls are bascially bimbo. or bitches. and we do nothing except play with gadgets.

haiz. i believe these people are just jealous of us. they are the evil people. remember i got kicked out of ngee ann IRC channel when i sae i was a mass commer. my advisor is this ang moh guy. whom has got a bad sense of humour. guess wht he gave us for homework.?

write one paragraph on what is a good paragraph.

wah lau eh. screw u also.

aniwae. he teaches written communication. i have got 3 hours of radio lessons next tue. suddenly listening to radio. catching the lastest movie. watching the hottest sitcom and keeping a look out for lastest advertisment has all become my offical homework. hahahaha. papa and mama cannot scold me animore for being glued to the television. its my homework.

ok. above that was my day yesterday. my night was delicated to soma with mr B. mr ZM. mr M. mr A. miss R. miss C and miss K. i am sure u guys know who u are yourself. yesterday soma was very very mild. considering the fact that the last soma session resulted in all not being even able to walk straight. everyone was ok yesterday.

i bought a can of henikien. [ got spell correctly?] the brand that got jeniffer aniston for the advertisment one. ok. i sort of wasted that can of beer. i drank like onli 5% of the whole thing and threw it away. it realli tasted damn awful. yucks.! mr B drank voldka. he was ok. onli abit crazy.

he told me like 3 times the following sentence.

' life is sad. i need to be loved.'

miss R also wasnt realli happy. apparently. his boyfren is overseas. so. i refer u guys back to my previous blog regarding the world being a happier place without love. i bet my balls its absolutely true. so. mr B needs a girlfren. i introduced to him one. but he didnt appericated it.

there is this girlfren which will come when you ask her to. and go when you ask her to. she is absolutely yours onli and you control her whole life. u can scream and shout at her but she will still sing a nice song for you. best of all. if you dun ever want to see her again. just sell to the rag and bone man. if u fancy another one. just dump the present one aside.

wah. so good. this is my girlfriend. anione interested.?

i got 3. show u gius their picture next time. gtg to go watch TV. nononono. i mean do homework. bye.

time flies....

time realli flies. the more i grow up. the more i understand this classic phrase. its seems like onli yesterday i was still mugging wth all my fellow cat high gentlemen. [not sissy] but tml will mark a new start in my life.

orientation for me tml. i am going to meet a whole new bunch of people. or rather strangers. i will try to smile and act friendly tml. or els people think i veri ' tao'. i am not. also going to check out the guitar club in ngee ann tml. hope it doesnt crash with anithing.

i realli feel damn lost now. i realli miss myself like a few months ago. when i was so so certain mass comm in ngee ann poly is the best path for me. now. i dun noe. i realli dunno if i am going to like to in there. tink i am juz being paranoid. i will be fine. there are many people supporting me whom i cannot disappointed.

hm. mass comm. shld i do radio? advertisment? or public relation? or television? yar. i tink everything is going to be fun. heard that i am going to require to find my own actors for my projects. so to all friends out there. you guys shld know wht to do when shld i look for u guys next time. i got quite alot of friends. shldnt be a problem.

advertisment shld be fun and challenging. i would love to try it. nowadays advertisments all quite lame. realli cannot stand it. like..... cow fall from the tree.... t*ger nation....

around 16 hours more to orientation.... feel like puking already.

MAMA. I DUN WANNA GO TO SCHOOL.

thx alot Grace.

yar. thx alot Grace. thx alot for the farewell gift u gave me today. i am veri touched. hm. dun mind me for saying its 'pu niang' stuff. i realli like it alot. er. my sis wanna ask u how u made tt pen thing. aiya. i realli dunno wht to sae. other than....

THANK YOU.

ok. guitar club was ok today. i kinda flopped my session with yongxin today. again. sux. i realli need to go master the fretboard in order to continue.

realise people are reading my blog. and some like it. i urge people who read my blog to leave a tag with your name. thx alot.

to God.

i delicate this post to God.

thank you God. thank you a million time for giving me a healthy state of body and mind.

actually. i am not a christian. i am born into a kinda of traditional taoist family. but there is something very wrong with me. i dun realli know much and understand the religion. but. i believe there is a God. not excactly the christian God. but. juz a God that creates everything.

met alot of people from chao yang special in the train today. i sort of pity them. they are very poor thing. alot of people in the public dun like them. they shun them. but. they all seem to be in a world of their own. seeing them like this. i wanna thank God for giving me whatever i have in my life today.

something more happy. guitar club tml. yea man. its wednesday again. going to meet all my friends again. hope tml is not my last day with them. sch ends at 3pm nx time. hope i can still continue to go back every wk after sch starts to maintain my 200% attendance. there is this J1 guy in guitar club that i admire. i think he has a bit of hearing problem. thus. encountering abit more difficulty when learning. but. i there always this look of seriousness and passion in his face. this look of determination when he moves his finger. good luck to him. but. dun think of getting better than me. coz i am training more than you. hahahaha.

i was like a guitar student for the past 2 months. playing everyday. got improve abit. but. not alot. think i need to improve on my theory before i can go on. first started guitar since sec 3. but there is no doubt i learned more than i ever did for the past 5 months. thx alot to cj guitar club.

i lost a post yesterday. damn pissed off. i wrote quite abit.

oh. today i saw a chio bu on the train. realli damn chio.

yar. that's it for today.

without love....

without LOVE....
hatred cannot be defined.
thus. there would be no hatred in the world.


without LOVE....
sadness would be non-existence.
thus. there would be no sad people in the world.


without LOVE....
everyone is an individual.
thus. anyone do not have to worry about anyone in the world.


without LOVE
disappointment is nothing.
thus. no one will ever be disappointed in the world.

LOVE. a big word we constantly say and think of.

but. who can define LOVE.?

happiness of love are but a illusion. sadness will certainly follow.

sufferings.


people whom can define love don't love.

maybe....

without LOVE....
the world is a better place.

but who in this world is capable of not loving at all....?


none. that's why we are all suffering.

to all my frens out there....

thx for tagging. i tink my language realli sucks to the core. that's why people are misunderstood.

i am not smoking. and i will not smoke.

yar. i know smoking is bad. realli bad for health. and it makes you smell not nice after some time. so. as friends lets help each other and not smoke. if anione ever see me smoking. juz call my mum and slap me. i will thank you forever.

didn't blog yesterday coz i was out for the whole day. it was 1t08's class outing. or issit? waited and waited at the mrt station. to see onli jiahong and gred. so it bacame cat high gathering in the end. the girls.... didnt see them till like about 4pm. [we were suppose to meet at 12 noon]...... khairi met us later. he is still the same. funny as ever. taught us some new hand-shake....which were quite gayish. nvm. i like.

someone commented that i am vulgar in my blog. well. in actual fact. i am not a vulgar person at all. i am a gentlemen and bilingual scholar of high integrity and robust character whom is passionate about life. learning. and service to others. but i use words such as fuck in my blogging. coz. sometimes. its onli these vulgarities that can accurately convey your feeling at that time. that fucked-up feeling. i am sure winnie knows best. so. i am not vulgar. in fact. i am a gentlemen and bilingual scholar of high in.........

no one knows how i am feeling now. feeling.... i can't find the word other than fucked up. ok. its this stomach turned upside down feeling. i am quite used to it. i always get this a few times a year when school reopens everytime.

need to go get something. continue later.

Catholic High School

forget abt smoking. i am not going to continue. lost my thought.

going back to cat high high to meet ken. siangloong. boonyew. later. we will playing ping pong and tok cock. our favourite. going back to cat high always provoke my memories of happy and uphappy incidents. i will always remember.......

i will always remember my sec 1 days.
remember the NDP days. the mass display we trained for 6 months. and ended up 6 mins on national TV. remember how crazy we were over the JC cheerleaders. remember the lot of us reading FHM in class after NDP ends at 12am. remember how i tried to act decent and refuse to read FHM. but realise its part of cat high intergrated life afterwards. remember mr leong whom commented that my singing 'CaNnot mAkE iT'.....

i will always remember my sec 2 days.
remember the CH fiesta. thus remembering the luo han fish. remember how my maths sucks. remember how everyone tried to get into triple science. remember my one on one maths remedial with mr lee. coz no one ever bothered to come.

i will always remember my sec 3 days.
remember the J8 Jumbo sale. remember how i first picked up guitar playing. remember how i buay song ms seah. walked out of the class. slammed the door. and in the end she went to the staff room to cry. remember my one on one maths remedial with mrs tay. coz my add maths realli cannot make it. remember how trigo made me feel so ultimately fucked up. remember how i was worried i wasnt promoted to sec 4.

i will always remember my sec 4 days.
remember i got A2 for 'o' level chinese. went home and shouted at my father to get out of the house when he said something. i cannot remember. but i remember he realli got out of the house. remember how i finally quit my cca to join green club. remember mr lee hak boon's communist alike propoganda speeches. remember my mugging session in sch. tt often turn out to be a table tennis session. remember mr goh's delication by staying with us in sch till 11pm to mug. he has got to be one of the greatest teacher around. remember the introduction of maxim. remember how howkiat while appearing to be mugging was actually gorging at FHM and Maxim for 5 hours. remember chenting's love for ms tan that ultimately motivated him to get 9 pts. remember the first day i saw miss lee and never forgetting how chio she is. remember the passion i share with ken for marine aqa. how we visited almost all the fish farm in singapore. remember boonyew's dad's story. and the 7 man dream team we decide to form after '0's. remember the last chemistry paper and the sense of utter lost after that.

all these memories may not stay with me forever. but i am sure i will never forget something. and that is....

how wong-dog is such a ultimate mother fucker.

all right. need to go to sch.

a new phrase of life

just got my notebook yesterday evening. i bought it because my course of study at ngee ann poly requires it. some people say they are jealous of me. but. the actual fact is i would rather use the money to buy some other things such as an electric guitar. i dun give a damn about owning a notebk. to me. its just a added responsibility.

sch is starting real real soon. and i am scared to start school. mass comm. its not a course where mugging will get you anywhere. i know i am capable of mugging. but i am abit worried about my language. my creativity juices. and most importantly. not enough clothes to wear. but mum is so busy working. she has no time to buy me clothes. and i will freak out at the idea of shopping myself.

the next 3 years is really going to be important for me. i chose this poly path myself. my parents supported me. and i am not going to let them down. i have already done it once with a '0' level agg 13. i want to the the top 3% of my course. i want to get straight As for all my assignment and project. i wanna show everyone that believe its best for me to go JC that poly education is not in anyway.... can't find the word....less prestige? poly courses is said to be less taxing and relaxing because the people slack. i am not going to slack. people say there are alot of negative influence in poly education. but. having been in a JC before tells me the same influence are everywhere. it all depends on you ultimately. I AM TELLING EVERYONE NOW. IF YOU EVER SEE ME SMOKING. PLZ SLAP ME.GIVE ME TWO TIGHT SLAPS ON THE FACE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

i am not saying i will not smoke ever. its just that why smoke when you know its not good for health. ar. need to go eat breakfast. continue later.

information and technology

first of all. a big THANK YOU to Emily for helping me with my blog. i got a tagboard for yetnamed. or rather emily got it for me. i have no idea wht tt html thing is all abt. i am a lost guy there. nvm. i will learn to use it veri soon. than i will start linking u guys up.

went to ngee ann poly today for the dunno wht freshman orientation thing. shldnt have went at all. coz they didnt take attendance. they onli thing i like abt the whole thing was the cheerleader part. [ juz kidding ] i liked the old man tt played the harmonica. he is really good. glad tt i got kisha together wth me in mass comm. i didnt know tt she was realli so obsessed with purple colour till she came in purple today. met up with 1t04 after ngee ann. it was fun. got to noe rachel abit better.

good news. i think i sort of improved for my guitar playing. not realli alot. but its certainly a break through from like 2 wks ago. realli learned alot this 4 months. thx to Yongxin. and all others in guitar club. yet to check out my mass comm time table. hope its friendly enough to allow me to go back to cjc every wed. k. enough for today.

'whatever that you know, you are a teacher.
whatever that u dont know, you are a student.' - Clarence on guitar playing

thank you

thank you to those pple tt posted comments for mi.

tze, alvan, winny.

winny apparently created a blog to post comments on my blog regarding mr M. love realli works wonder. but winny's language is sort of funny. i juz can't figure out wht she is trying to say. or am i outdated regarding abbreviations.[got spell correctly??] my language sucks. i am going to die at mass comm..... the coming together of winny and mr M was realli a BIG suprise for me. but. both seems happpy and blissed. wish them all the best.

will they get married in future? betta dun. they marriage system in singapore is collapsing. no point getting married anymore. people nowadays get married seemingly in order to get a divorce. so everyone. dun get married. do whatever u wanna do. but dun get married. no point giving yrself tt added responsibility.

for me. i think i am still going to get married in future. i think mine will be a success. if i fail.... than just file for divorce.....[juz kidding] i have always believe having a open mind for divorce is certainly a good thing. coz. i have seen my grandparents lived with each other for nearly 4 decades without any love. its totally scary. really freaked me out. wonder how my grandparents pulled it through.... they were bounded by traditions of a conservative society. sort of condemned.

mum told me there are bascially 3 types of women after marriage. which i find very true. every single lady out there can fit into one of them.

1. the first type love their children. this is the greatest type. because they love their child so much. they can do all sorts of incredible things beyond our imagination. they can withstand they difficulty of their own marriage. maybe juz to provide a family for the child.i salute them.!

2. the second type love their man. they can survive without oxygen but not without man. they love their man more than life itself. that's why we often read news that say wad..... step-mother allowed lover to molest daughter.... woman sold body to devil in order to clear lover's debt. well.... i dunno wht to sae abt them. it juz seem that they found the wrong man. or els they would indeed be the happiest person in the world. or maybe. they read too much fairytales.

3. the third type. i consider the lousiest. they love themselves the most. they would go out and play majong for the whole weekend and not care abt the family. if they win the game. they would buy themselve something to reward themselves. if the lost money. i am sure their kid get it. this kind of woman shld be send to hell after they die. they deserve it. [the unknown auntie tt plays poker under blk 645 everyday. and juz dun care abt his 2 year old son should be the 1st to be send there]

so now. think about it. wht type of lady is yr mum.? if the ans is the 1st type. go thank her now. and let her know that u love her equally too. not onli by words but also by your EVERYDAY action. if your mum is the second or third type. well.... try to forgive her. i mean she is your mum after all.

random

saw angie in the train today. she's very happy. nice to see her like this. jealous of her. life hasnt realli been nice for mi this few wks. no doubt i am feeling relaxed everyday. but....wadever. its difficult to sae. i tink my family is going through a realli difficult time. as in.... our communication. members of the family fail to understand each other. and this is real bad. hope i get real busy when sch starts so i will tink less.

nvm. there are still happy tings in life. in everyone's life. u juz need to find it. for mi now. guitar training tml is a happy thing. well. the j2s will not be around tml. :( doesnt matter. coz jiahong, melvin and elvan will be joing me tml. hm. we will all do fine. kinda of miss my j2 frens. hope they are all right. especially. mr J. thought i have no idea wht its like since i got no experience at all. i am sure he will get over it. come on. we are still young. and u are a nice guy. nice and honest. hm. i mean honest-looking. my mum taught me not to judge a book by its cover.

oh yar. another unhappy thing in my life. i met a girl today. on the train. she's juz a stranger. but meeting this kind of girl always make me feel.....i can't find the word.......

.....Fucked up.....k.... i found it....

sorry. if tt was too vulgar. but tt explains my feeling.

they are girls tt are TALLER than mi.

hm. i dun hate them. but i dislike them. for they make me feel ultimately inferior. [ but i like their long legs at the same time] i remember my cat high days. a trainee teacher was posted to our sch. she was realli damn damn chio. but. also damn damn tall at the same time. so at tt time. i was veri motivated to grow tall. i jump to touch every single lamp along the corridor. i bought a skipping rope and i started skipping everyday. i didnt seemed to grow any taller. nvm.

Miss Lee. i am still growing. plz wait for mi. i love u.

after cat high. i got got posted to cat Jc for 1st 3 months. and another gal came into my life making mi wanna grow taller again. she's 3cm taller than mi. hm. not a lot. should be able to catch up in due time. no worries. i am still growing.

Tiffany. i am tt close.

i am talking alot of rubbish today. so. if u are not happy with yr height. dun be sad. coz. u are certainly not alone in this world. we are together. but plz be smart when trying to grow taller. dun ever believe wadever break yr legs method. i have a few tips.

1. try skipping.
2. buy calcium tablets to eat. heard they work. [ GNC, Osim]
3. eat lots of dairy products
4. tell yrself u wanna grow taller every now and than.

meanwhile growing taller. [ it takes time] we can make ourselve appear taller. another few tips to share.

1. when buying shoes. forget abt the brand, the design. go for shoes with ultimate high soles
2. keep a mouth of breath in yr lungs every second
3. stuff tissue paper in yr shoes [ i dun do that]

k. enough for today.

anyone reading my blog?

someone posted a comment on my blog. not realli sure who that person is. and i got no idea wht he is talking abt.... finally. my com is realli. i can stop going to get my head chopped off at those stupid LAN shop.

news: second singaporean blogger get into hot soup after critical comments on the net

hm. so who says no one is reading our blog. the govt is reading it. i wonder if they read mine yet.

i have never ever experienced life so relaxed till now. doing wht ever i wan to do everyday and going anywhere i wan to go everyday. but sch is starting real soon. i am going to be a mugger than. i want to be the top 3% and get into university. i MUST. its achievable.

aniwae. the library at the esplande is a great place to go. sign up for their premium membership for 21 bucks a year. and there are endless things u can do there. even if u dun have the membership. do go there also. its the best library in singapore. think FHM is too expensive? go there and read. can even borrow home. man's health.... female.... etc also got. like music? listen to their CDs there. they even got budak pantai's album. i listened to it for 5 times there already. and u borrow all the DVDs and tapes. wah. damn good.

remember to ask mi along if you are going.

my 4/5/2005

quite a lot happened today. went to CJ as usual. realised some of my frens went for a veri interesting soma session last sunday. hm. not realli sure if i would want to join them. i dun wanna smoke for my whole life. i dun like my father for smoking. thus. i have no wish to do it. i am quit determined abt it. mr M was drinking voldka wth his frens in class. ABSOLUTE voldka. he drunk alot. but i tink he is fine. mr J told mi his gerfren juz broke up wth him yesterday. didnt believe him till i saw the sms. hope he gets over it soon. wow. actually. i can see he is sad. but nvm. i mean. i dunno. i haven been in love before.[secret]

realised tt actually alot of pple got boyfren and gerfren before. seems like i am the onli that is.....nvm. . i am all right wth it. juz waiting for the right girl to come into my life. hm. 4 years in catholic high realli ruined my life....nono...i shld sae my love life. fuck.!

someone asked mi why is my blog's template pink in colour. this is becoz i tink pink is a PEACEFUL colour. its not a gay colour. in fact i suggest to the united nations to change their colour to pink. u know.... pink helment, pink handband.... crap.... aniwae. pink is O.K.

got another lesson wth yongxin today. haiz. i sucked. realli need to go buck up. however i learnt quit a few important tings today.
1. dun play punk rock [ or he will chop down my fingers]
2. beat pple playing electric guitar wth classical guitar.
3. play clearly. speed comes later.

hm. gotta work hard.!

the cjc guitar club- guitar 3

hm. woke up too early today. sort of. 8am. my earliest wake up in wks. nah. shldnt be sleeping too much aniwae. juz wasting away my life. hm. tml is wed. i love wed. coz i can go back to cjc and visit my frens and learn new guitar skills. hope the j2s are coming tml though its not compulsary for them to come. maybe i shld talk abt the guitar club today. start with guitar 3. coz this used to be my section.

GUITAR 3.
there are 5 pple in guitar 3. yongxin. may. reina. geraldine. and xiao an.

yongxin is the clubs president. i also dunno why. he is a gd player. in fact the best in guitar club. tt's coz he practise like siao everydae. hm. muz try to learn as much as i can from him. absorb all his power. he talk a lot of crap. i know why. coz he is from cat high. we are all interesting as a person.

may is our section leader. she appears veri anti-social. always hanging out with reina. but. actually she is veri nice. talk to her and she would talk to u. hm. i always tink that may appears to be veri sad. maybe its becoz....i dunno. aniwae. may was great during SYF. she played her solo prefect. hm. reina is may's best fren i suppose. they are always together. reina is also nice. alot of my parts in the syf peices are taught by her. thx alot.

geraldine always skip training. but i would remember her for her talk with mi regarding mass comm. hm. looks like we have pretty different views. but nvm. i believe we will both excel in our lifes so as to support out extravagent lifestyle. xiao an came in late into guitar club. hm. its interesting to hear how different pple got such totally different views abt him. but he is a gd player. hope to learn more from him. but it seems he would quit guitar club to pursue his other commitments in the sch. gd luck to him if he is running for council.

k. tt's all for todae. will talk abt the other sections some other days.