my fucked-up haircut....

(taken from blee's blog) yea... went to catch 'War of the World' with Team Man yesterday. haiz... my haircut really sux la... from left to right. zhongming. alvan. benjamin(blee). melvin. me. nicholas.

mass comm peers..

went over to val's house to do project last sunday. introducing my mass comm friends. from top going clockwise. nat. valerie. selene. kristy. me.! [i miss my hair...]

cat high days...

i came across this picture on someone's friendster. whaha. we took this pic in the toilet. the toilet is damn damn clean k.? i think i am the one showing my hand....

2 movies in 2 days.

i watched 'alot like love yesterday.'

it was basically a movie about a loose bit bitch.[a very loose one indeed] and a horny bastard.[a very horny one indeed]. the movie is a very typical love comedy movie. like many other movies. it is based on the 'missed love' plot. in this movie. the two lead actors 'missed' each other for 7 years. the ending.... is pretty expected.... it ends when they get together. and everyone presumes they make violent love and live happily ever after.....

oh..... how sweet......

........boring la...... but i think this is what the audience are looking for.... this kinda plot is capable of making one's perfect day.

i juz watched 'war of the world'.

the graphic was damn cool. i thought it was realli quite real. however. its really a story with little plot. i got no idea how the original story is like... maybe i should read it to get a better idea.

well. to sum it all. its the story of 3 lucky people la... that's all. however. i do encourage all to catch the movie.

watch how fragile human life can be.
watch how ugly human race can be.
watch how our family are the closest to us ultimately.
watch how individualistic human race can be.
watch how selfish human race can be.....

anyway. i met up with my 1T04 peers for the movie at lido today.

benjamin. alvan. melvin. zhongming. rachel. gloria....

also khrisa and a new guy..... i am always damn happy to see them. though i have been classmates with quite a few for only 5 days. i just feel comfortable when being with them. i guess its because they dont put up a fake front. anyway. good luck to all for your remaining papers. you guys will make it la. dont think too much. concentrate on the task at hand and 'chiong ar'.!

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i screwed up my bus ride today... again... i was travelling to town when i fell asleep again. with aother lady beside me. so... my sleeping head was tilted at a 45 degree to the right... nearly leaning on her... she woke me up by going...

''ahem" [a really loud one].... and sitting up very straight suddenly to avoid me...wah... i was really damn 'pai seh' la... but i just acted like i dunno anything. hm. anyway. cant they just 'lend' their shoulder to a guy that is really asleep.? i will thank them when i wake up la...

k. gtg study for my test tml. remember to tag guys. let me know how are you all doing. good luck and bye.

bad hair day....

i am already screwed up enough for this week. i have tons of assignment waiting for me to complete and numberous projects to finish. and today isnt exactly a fantastic way to start a screwed up week.

i went for a hair cut today.-a bad hair cut. there is this salon named Keller's salon at thomson plaza. dun be fooled by its decent appearance. anyone can go cut your hair there at your own risk. you will most probably end up crying like me. nvm.... i will just take it as a lesson learnt.

JJ's logic before 6pm: dont tell a hairdresser what to do on your head. he/she is the professional. you ought to trust him with the job.

JJ's logic after 6pm: its your head. if you are going to trust another person with your head. good luck.!

i am having a bad hair day. i really hate hair cut. i always feel naked after a hair cut. its like not wearing anything. i lack a sense of security. however. one thing i can console myself with is my hair grow back really fast.haiz.... hope this coming few weeks will pass in a blink of the eye.

the worst thing is the boss dare to charge me 16 bucks for the fucked-up hair cut. wau lau eh....any auntie in the neighbourhood salon can do this kind of hairstyle la. it would most probably cost 10 bucks. [maximum]

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i took a bus home after my screwed-up haircut. i was so tired after a whole day of lecture i fell asleep on the bus. [i had 6 hours of lecture today.] i was so comfortable with myself....i was nearly sleeping on the st margret girl sitting beside me. i was just inches away from her.... she looked really horrified and had retreated herself all the way against the bus.

...... damn screwed la ....... i looked around. fuck. i just missed my bus-stop. so in the end. i had to walk one bus-stop back home. oh man.... this is really a entry on what happened today.....gotta go do my work. hope tomorrow will be a better day.

i cant imagine something worst....

~~screwed up JJ~~

thinking by JJ's logic....

a big thank you to everyone who had tagged. i really apperciate it.

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i dont feel comfortable these few days. my head feel tight as though compressed by some forces. i realise i have been thinking of too much stuffs. i have been trying to answer all the questions in me. and this is giving me alot of un-needed stress.

i am afraid to blog an entry now because i am afraid of facing my own writings afterwards. i have been blogging for nearly two months and i must say it was fun. in fact. i cant wait to share my daily experience and what i feel about certain issues with people reading my blog everyday.

i love to share my logic.

i am proud of my logic. i have a certain level of confidence about my logic. alot of people are living their life according to other people's logic. to me. they are not living their own life at all.

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there is a branch of logic named science. contents of this branch of logic are generally accepted by people. they are scientifically proven to be true. thus all these logics are logical.

however. who can prove science.?

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there is another branch of logic named love. however. this branch of logic is always un-pure. it is always interrupted by other logic. the world would be a peaceful and nice place for all to live in should love make the rules.

however. humans chose science.

science is ruthless. selfish. individualistic.

it is impossible for science to compromise love.thus. i cant imagine the world in future.... its going to be ultimately scary.

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there is another branch of logic named religious belief. it is simply a set of logic that someone came up with and managed to get others to believe in this logic. some of these sets of logics seem so appealing that they got billions of followers in the world.

almost all content of religious cannot be proven by science. a scientist would never have the answer to whether God exists anot. it would be scary if it can be proven one day.

so. a true and pure scientist should not have a religious belief. its just simply not logical.

humans came up with religious beliefs initally because we are afraid of our environment. we are afraid of the strong winds and the vast ocean. we believe something control the element in our environment. we believe something control us. we named it god. but. who or what is god.? no one had the answer than. so some think that the sun is the god. some think that a dragon living under the sea is the god. some think that people who do special things are god....

we are afraid. so we came up with the idea of god. thinking that if we say nice things about god. if we believe that god is superior. if we give our life to god. god would bless us. god would love us. god would be nice to us.

but. where is god. does god exists.?

but. i believe its better if we dont find god.

i believe the world would end the day humans prove god.

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p.s: all content are based on JJ's logic. JJ has no intention to offend anyone. just read all the crap in a light-hearted manner.

my english sucks. i need to do something about it.

my study in mass communication course is not working right. i am facing a very serious problem that can easily jeopardise my 3 years in ngee ann poly.

i got back my first report yesterday. the grade was far from encouraging. and the lecturer's comments werent in the least encouraging at all. i got a C- grade for the report. it is the lousiest grade in class. i was experiencing despondent about this failure the whole of yesterday. i have already read through my report 3 times to count. and i must admit i really deserve the C- grade. it was a badly written essay with grammatical errors running through out. and the bad habits i cultivated from blogging are all clearly reflected in the essay.

i gotta say i have bad bad english foundations. i grew up in a chinese-speaking environment. my parents spoke zero english to me. i speak chinese to my friends in school too. in fact. i didnt really started speaking english most of the time till i got into CJC for my 1st 3 months course this year. however.i would say i havent got much problem communicating in english. its the writing part that is really killing me. the sad thing is. the ability to write well is the most vital to a mass comm student. all of the modules we do require us to do reports. writings. essays kinda stuff. this is best summarised in one of the comment my lecturer left for me in my essay.

it says, '' you need to improve on your english writing skills in order to survive in MCM.""

wah. i was really damn demoralised. but. i know the most important thing is for me to get over it and start doing something concrete to improve the standard of my english language generally. complaining and blogging will help nothing. so. i have come up with a plan. hope i am able to execute it with determination.

1. start reading more. i need to start reading the newspaper more regularly. read stuffs like newsweek and check out meanings of words that i dont know.

2. no more crap language in my blog. i am going to blog more formally. chris's blog would be a good example. it is written in proper language. however. it can still be funny.

3. go back to primary school grammar. grammar is the foundation to all aspect of english. without good grammar. good sentences are not formed. leading to bad paragraph. resulting in badly written essay. and ultimately fucked-up grades.

4. improve my vocabulary bank. its essential. i can start by checking out ''cheem'' words in emily's blog.

k. enough of all these. all talk and no action will lead me to no-where. i need to start improving now. to all friends out there. please do me a favour by pointing out any errors in my posts. you guys can also help me by recommending good books to me that may help improve my language. thanks alot guys.

school work are getting more and more heavy. though my lesson time are short. i have lots of projects based kinda assignment to do. so. i am going to start blogging less in future. daily update is no more possible. but. do tag whenever you read my blog. i would want to know how all my friends are doing. k. going home now.

~~sad and demoralised JJ~~

good luck to ALL... hang in there..!

1 more week and the school holiday would end for all my JC peers. mid-year starts immediately after the holiday.

benjamin. rachel. alvan. melvin.... all my 1T04 friends.

jiahong. phong. kai. khairi. tyrik.... all my 1st 3 months 1T08 friends.

winnie. karen. julia.... all my guitar club friends.

ken. siangloong. bew. zenden..... AALLL my cat high friends.

Good Luck all.... hm... i know its difficult. but press on. and enjoy yourself in JC... you guys have all my moral support...

hope you guys can all do well for all examz. =)

random entry 2.

god played a trick on 3 kinds of people in this world.

1. the physically challenged.
2. the mentally challenged.
3. the true homosexuals.

i always tell myself i am not fit to complain to god or ask god for anything coz i should be glad i dun fall in the 3 categories.

but as i human. i cant help but compare with others. all humans are like that. we are never satisfied with what we have. we always want more. we dun look at what we have. but what we dun have.

we constantly ask for more. but we are always reluctant to give. we ask for others understanding. but seldom do we make a effort to understand others. we point our fingers at others readily. not realising that three are pointing back at us.

we study history. but we never learn history. we are always good at talking. but not at listening.....

we never understand how to love.....

love is power. love is understanding. love is forgiveness.

love is hatred. love is sufferings. love is sinful.

we always engage in the latter.

we never understand how to love....
we never understand how to love..........
we never understand how to love..................

happy birthday za-kee....!!

i am just back from ah za-kee's birthday... he turns two years old today.

happy birthday ah-za...!

za-kee is my next favourite cousin after ah-toon... he is damn cute too...and... he got veri good stamina...

shame on u la JJ....you can actually get tired by chasing after your 2 year old cousin...

a cousin birthday would also involve seeing all my aunties... uncles...etc...

i seriously think i got a damn cool family.. coz my family is like damn freaking big... as a result some my aunties is actually younger than me....

er.... how to explain ar... k... my great-grandma is 81 years old this year and still counting... she got damn lots of children... 11 in all... she got so much children my great-grandpa got no idea what to name the 11th child... in the end... this name is 11 in the teo-chew dialect....

i swear i am not lying.... so... my grandpa is the eldest son of my great-grandma... he is 63 years old this year...er the 11th child is 43 years old this year... they got a 20 years gap.... er... still with me...?

than... my grandpa had his first son when he was 20 years old..... so just imagine.... your wife and your mother pregnant.... at the SAME TIME....

oh my god.... it will be soo damn pai-seh la....

wadever man... this is what happened la... so this explains the serious generation gap in my family... i got to call a sec 1 kid 'ah goo'... and a sec 4 gal 'ah-yi'....

of course i dun do that..... i just call them by name.....

but.... its damn cool la....

beautiful exotic fish....

i have a marine fish tank at home. it belongs to me.

its a sin to have a marine fish tank at home. i am sinning... very badly....

because of selfish like me that mantain a tank of the 'underwater world' at home. people are catching these fish from the wild to supply our demand.... which is sin-ful... coz the fish are deprived of the natural habitat...

just think 'Finding Nemo'.....

but... they are just so beautiful..... its a ultimate chill-out to watch the tank....

who say fish are boring pets.... watching the lion fish and the puffer fish chasing those helpless small fish.... eating them whole.... is damn shiok...!

its not cruel at all.... our world also function like that....haiz....

my nemo just died last week.... sad.....

aniwae.... if you are thinking of sinning by keeping a marine tank... feel free to contact me... i will render you help readily...

ok... finally... this is my tank... looks impressive ar... i took the photo with a cunning angle...er... in case you are wondering... its a fish tank not a rock tank... the fish all go to sleep already...

both lion fish and puffer fish eat smaller fish.... so... these fish are very poor thing... they got no idea about their fate... 

k... it seems like nothing... but there is a lion fish in the picture... its damn damn chio la.... but.. its also a lazy fish.. i promise i will catch a damn chio pic of this babe one day.. 

woohoo.... a anemone in my tank... i have always been saying its name wrongly... shame on me... its a-neh-mer-ni... not... a-ni-mo-ni... er... u know what am i driving at...? 

this is my puffer fish... my mama loves this fish... i also got no idea why... looks like E.T huh~. aniwae. it will realli puff up into a ball with all the spikes up... damn amazing... aiya.. what am i saying... its a puffer fish after all... 

pictures up...

the pictures are up... but they seem alittle blur....

well... they are taken by a web cam....

yea... i dun have a digital cam yet...=(

and finally.... the G3 jam...woohoo... 

the ugly fat FUCKer.... that smashed a electric guitar... 

stevie is always so cool. and he look more mature. but. i truly like the 1996 one alot better... 

this is the title of the dvd.. 

G3 LIVE in Denver.

went to town with val and sel today. and i got something for myself.

G3 Live in Denver, recorded on oct 20, 2003.

woohoo....i was so damn happy la... cause it was damn cheap...

$23.95 only.... for a DVD.

so i was damn happy.. and went to camp with val and sel at this coffee-house. [ constantly smiling without knowing. ] i play the dvd immediately and my first impressopn was that i didnt realli like it. i didnt like joe satriani first song.... so i skipped to Steve Vai performance. he played this 3-in-1 guitar... but it wasnt impressive.... i decided to go home... maybe the place was too noisy...

i watched the whole concert at home...

haiz..... i was kinda disappointed la... i thought the 1996 G3 concert was better than this 2003 one... certainly....

the 1996 G3 featured eric johonson however this 2003 one featured Yngwie Malmsteen instead. the other two remain joe satriani and Steve Vai.

its the first time i am watching Yngwie Malmsteen in action.

he is a big FUCKER. one big one. any vulgarities will not resolve my hatred for him. he is a bloody FUCKER. he anit even fit to be called a guitarist.

no matter how good your skills may be.... how do you expect me to respect you as a true and great guitarist when you dun even love and respect the guitar itself.

after his 3 songs... he changed his guitar... to smash....

wah lau eh... here i am dreaming to get a decent electric guitar everyday. and there he is smashing a electric guitar.

...........its like smashing a piece of cake in front of a hungry kid...

its inhumane la.....

i need to go to school.... picture speaks a thousand words... enjoy.

what happened to my tagboard ar.?

some kind one tell me what might have happened to my tagboard.? issit possible to get it back with all the previous tags or do i need to get a new one...?

i got no idea how to get a new one....

went back to cat high today. to collect my 'o' level cert. its always great to be back at cat high. the sense of familarity makes me feel comfortable. i dun think its ever possible to call ngee ann poly home. i mean its such a big school compound and we are always everywhere.

my 'o' level cert sucks. its really disgusting to see all the threes. B3 sucks. and i got 3 B3s. sucks la. but. being in mass comm now makes 'o' level meaningless. its a total new start. everyone is at a new starting point. seems like the whole process of the 'o' level is a memory and experience for me to keep.

i always find it wierd to suddenly meet a friend. i mean those friends that i used to be quite close with but ended up going different ways in life. i always think that two person may be the best friends for a certain period of time but not for life. its like my relationship with my cat high mates. we might be best of pals just 6 months ago. but when we meet each other now.... the lack of a common topic always make the scene awkard. do you understand.?

so talk will revolve round topic like how's school la... etc... shallow talk... that's why i really cherish relationship with certain friends. though i may not have met him for some time. i feel comfortable talking about certain issues with them. ya...

but... sadly... this is life... it just carries on.... it wont stop for anyone.

i got damn different way of handling friends relationship compared to my sister. i tend to be more cautious in trusting one. and take some time to know someone before labelling that person as a 'true friend'. however. my sister got the thinking that everyone is a friend.

i say she is pure stupid la.

there are damn lots of evil people out there. whom only wants to make use of you.

i dunno if i am right. but. i think that girls generally tend to trust their friends more and more easily also.

call each other jie-mei and be very close to each other....( for a period of time )

but.... sometimes or very often end up hurted...

hm... so to conclude... JJ's logic says that....

never trust someone completely except yourself. this applies to even your dad and mum. sometimes what they think is good for you may not be exactly what is best for you. understand.?

so... give all friends certain level of trust or you will end up with no friends.

BUT. DUN EVER GIVE ANYONE COMPLETE TRUST.

move ngee ann poly to yishun.!

my energy level is damn damn low.

i am like half-dead now.

its because of the long bus ride to and fro to school everyday.

long bus rides really kinda drain my energy.

lesson today truely sucks. i was far too distracted. i have no idea whether the school being wireless and everyone owning a notebook is a good or bad thing.

people are chatting online. downloading stuffs. writing blog. during lecture.

but. its damn fun la.

i cant believe how slack lessons are. 3 hours of radio tml. 2 hours on wed. 3 hours of written communication on thur. 2 hours of social psychological on fri. and my week ends.

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i spend 2 whole hours travelling to and fro school just for 2 to 3 hours of lesson everyday.

i got no idea whether i am considered lucky or unlucky.

fuck. just move ngee ann poly to yishun la. there is space just opposite my house.

where is the difference....?

some smart ass out there....

please enlighten me....there is this burning question....

what is the difference between a 17 year old STUDENT studying in a JC and a 17 year old STUDENT studying in a poly.?

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if there is no difference.? why are poly students paying adult fare for public transport.?

WHY.?

its bloody hell unfair....

issit because we got lousy score for our 'O' levels.?

which is untrue la. my 13 points can easily win majority of the YJC people. mr paranoid king's 8 point is even more power.

so they are conning stupid people to pay more.? coz we cannot count.?

or.... poly people are expected to go out and earn their own transportation fees.?

or... all poly people ride motor-bikes to school...?

when SARS broke out some time ago... why issit that JC people get to shelter at home while poly students continue to go to school.?

are poly student's body naturally stonger.?

or we are immune to SARS.?

hm.... someone answer my question.

guitar club at ngee ann....

i went to guitar club at ngee ann yesterday.

though i love the guitar. i love to play. i love to learn. but. i seriously dun think i will join them.

wah lau eh. really damn lousy. damn dis-organised. damn cheena. and i think they dun like mass comm people. they call my friend and i a 'rare breed'....

fuck you la. what 'rare breed'... i am a human.

my whole trip would have been wasted totally if i haven met this guy. he is totally crazy about the guitar. in fact. i think he knows more than yongxin.he knows a very wide range of guitar stuffs. from classical to rock. guitar history..... recent guitar concert....guitar player... the most amazing is...

he knows the carrot cake uncle that knows how to play guitar...

he spends all his money on guitar related stuffs...

oh my god.... he is totally crazy about the guitar.

he taught himself musical notes reading... wah... damn crazy. he plays alot of classical pieces. the sad thing is... he isnt much into improvising..

which is what i am the most interested in...

the ART of improvisation...

aniwae. not sure if i wanna join them.. i shld go again next wekk before making a decision.

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there is this pitch that i did yesterday for lesson....

i came up with this brain-washer idea. i named the product BRAINY-WASH...

wah... really damn crap....

i felt abit like a clown. coz the class kept laughing...

nvm.. must be thick skinned.

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fuck the sun.

the heat these few days is really driving me crazy....

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fuck the dumplings.

making me feel damn bloated. aniwae. i ate five today.

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fuck the electric guitar that is made of plywood.

i got no idea whether its worth it anot.

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fuck that cockey 'chi-go-peh'.

deserves to burn in hell.

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woohoo. blogging always make me feel damn 'shiok'.

bloggers. BE VERY CAREFUL.

yea. the internet is damn dangerous. blogging is vErY dangerous.

well. i had a pretty interesting experience yesterday. i wonder if i am cinsidered lucky or unlucky. you see the two veri innocent words up there.? at the top right habd corner of this page that saes....

NEXT BLOG.

dun ever under-estimate it. it could possibly lead you to places unexplored. actually. its quite interesting to click next blog. u dun noe wht to expect....

take mine experience yesterday for example. i was clicking on next blog randomly. when a adult blog so happen to be the next blog....

woohoo.... and most interesting of all. its a adult blog delicated to lesbianism. wah. all pictures.... steamy pictures....

soooo...... as a good boy. i closed the window immediately and prayed to god for forgivance as i have sinned very very badly. [ well. if you believe this part. ]

hm.... was i lucky or unlucky....? you decide. i got no comments.

but i am sure of something. BE CAREFUL.!

i am in the school's library now. juz finshed 4 hours of straight lecture and there is around one more hour before the next two hour of lecture starts. so i am blogging now. lecture was o.k juz now. the lecturer is damn funni. aniwae. there was this short talk just now warning us seriously of some issues.


issues like attendance.... being late for lesson.... blah... blah.... i know... than there is the interesting part regarding blogging. its something like that..

'' i am aware of the blogging habit of teens nowadays. but please take note and be very careful about what you write. there have been previous cases of slander of lecturer and the student is made to apologise publicly..... blah.. blah... dun even think that if you dun say the name directly. its ok. its not. if there is a SLIGHTEST HINT... u are in trouble....''

wah. i am so scared. i dun dare to say evil things animore. the government is reading it... the school is also reading it...

BLOGGERS. BE VERY CAREFUL.

i wonder wht can i sae safely and what i sae will lead to big terms like slander. can i blog abt facts safely.?

like... that lecturer is damn FAT. its a fact. yea.. shld be quite safe..

oh yar. also cannot sae bad abt frens. what the hell is this man. this is mine blog. i sae whatever i like.

whatever consequences can come later. i dun give a damn. people tt cant accept people talking bad about them can go burn in fucking hell.

FUCK you. u dun like mine blog.? dun read it. click on next blog. there might be other blogs that are far more interesting. if you are lucky.

aniwae. i feel that i have kinda run out of interesting things to write abt. so i have decided to get frens to feature write in mine blog. plz leave me a tag if you are interested. plz do not write abt things that are personal. write abt stuffs tt you noe eveyone can relate to. for example a fucking mugger in class. hope to hear from u guys soon. cya.

oh yar. for the final time. the internet is dangerous. bloggers. BE CAREFUL.!

who the hell am i.? who the hell are you.?

there are so many faces to a person.

so many personality.
some that of a hero. some that of a villian.
so many different roles we play in life.
some roles we play it passively. some we play it actively.
so many lies we tell in life everyday.
to others and to yourself.
some out of good will but some out of selfishness.
so many moods we experience everyday.
some good. some bad......

so many friends i have. how many know exactly who the hell am i.?

none.

so many friends i have. how many do i know exactly who they are.?

none.

who the fucking hell knows me.?

none. not even mine mum....

.....not even me myself.

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its always disturbing to read abt another friends depressing thoughts. to read abt their down moments in life. especially when they attempt to end everything. so many incidents we have heard abt... how many have ended their life.?

only a few i have heard of.

those that end their life because of maybe complex family problems.... kinda things. i pity you. these people just need help. its sad how they ended their life bacause of problems that are highly likely to be solved.

those that end their life bacause of fucked-up relationships with the opposite sex.

well.... u can go burn in fucking hell. no way am i going to give you mine slighest sympathy. but. i pity your mum.

unmeasurable resources invested to give you a good life. and you are ending it just because of a opposite sex.

do u even deserve to take your own life.? are u even qualified.?

give yourself two tight slap and wake up.

stop being dumb. its easy for u to take your own life. but. the one that are going to suffer and grieve ultimately will be your mum. your dad. people that truely love you.

that guy or gal that ditched you doesnt truely loves you.

[ this post goes together with this incident that happened in mine neighbourhood. one stupid fucker jumped off the 6th floor and died apparently because his galfren wanted a break-up. this fucker died quite a unslightly death. his body folded into half. however. i dun pity him. serve him right. he can go burn in fucking hell. he deserves it. ]

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to all mine frens out there. if you need help.

PLEASE.... do not hesistate to talk to me. if saying it out will make you feel better. well. i am here. just feel comfortable. you know who u are.

take care guys.!

wht's wrong with speaking chinese.?

yar. wht's wrong with speaking chinese.?

wht's wrong with being able to speak good chinese.?

rachel's experience regarding the two 'cheena fuckers' was damn funny. [ refer to link at the side ].

wht i realli cannot stand are those parents that insists speaking english to their kids. for goodness sake. i suppose those people had a chinese background all through their life. i assume they can speak proper and logical chinese language to their kids. why insists on speaking english.?

when the english is so fucking lousy.

i know mine english is lousy too.

but. at least i can form a sentence like....

' ah boy, return didi his toys ' instead of....

' ah boy, return did he toys. '....... the auntie living at the 6th storey said this to his son in the lift just now.

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its damn interesting how peers in mine class love to talk about gays, lesbians, porn, breast enlargement, sports bra, wht nice flowery bra another got today....etc.

i guess its just part of growing up.

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instead of just a malay friend. mine first pure malay friend. [ i dun realli consider khairi pure malay since his great grandfather or something is a chinese. ] aniwae. now i also got a indian friend.

i think she is pure indian. coz quite black. [ no racist intention. ]
mine first indian friend.

i presented a speech in class today. i talked abt mine dearest ah toon. i had no intention to be funni. but. the class just laughed veri often. i have got no idea why...

aniwae. there was this interesting gal tt talked abt bitching as a hobby.

to sum up she said....

' here is mine 3 tips to effective bitching. bitch with STYLE. bitch with POWER. and last but not least bitch with ATTITUDE. '

i cant realli remember if its these 3 words. something like that....

oh yar. i realli didnt realise tt yongxin is such a nice person. i know he is nice. but didnt know he is ssoo nice. he lent me his G3 life in concert dvd. which i requested for. in addition. he also lent me school of rock. and even gave me a bar of chocolates.

thx man. i have decided to copy for you the all star guitar night concert in return. thx a million aniwae.

juz finished watching the 2 dvd. steve vai is damn awesome. but it was a pity i think his amp got some problem... cant hear him loud sufficently in the jamming section. i think the performance at UK was far much better than the one featured in the dvd.

aniwae. i am kinda dissapointed with steve vai's choice of clothes. well. its typical rocker clothes. but. er. not exactly veri nice...

tired after a long day. the fridays in future might be even longer if i join the guitar club. well.. decide after a take a peep at the guitar club nx thurs.

goodnight guys.

the update.

i haven been updating for 2 days. haven got the time to post a proper post.

lotsa have happened over the past few days. its not even possible for me to put them all down. mine life has changed. mine family would no more be the same again. its not possible. over these few months. i saw in more depth what kinda of person both mine parents actually are. its always a parent role we see our father and mother acting as in life. but. have you eveer seen them act their actual role of themselves in life.?

their personality. their character. their true colour.

who they actually are. the character of a father and mother is but just a role they play. its part of their life. but certainly not their actual life.

i have got a new understanding of mine religion in mine life. i learnt it two days ago. it was absolutely drama. i always have got no idea how to define religion in mine life. do i have a religion at all.? do i believe in it.?

do i even need a religion in mine life.?

being born into a taoist family. but knowing almost nothing. or rather understanding nothing at all abt the religion. and being enroled into a school of catholic background and belief has upset and confused mine religious mind. but i like what valerie told me yesterday.

' i am more spiritrual than religious. '

i totally agree. after all. i believe all religion thinkings and study are but a attempt to understand the spritrual part inside each and everyone of us. few have understood. the rest. mostly. understand onli their physical body and not their soul.

aniwae.....

i am going off to sch in abt an hours time. its 3 hours of written communication for me. i know i am going to hate before i even attend it. the advisor mr sharpe. well. er. being a student for 15 years......

experience tells me he is a lazy bum ass teacher. tt is onli concern abt finishing his work.

well. i am assuming. hope he is not. i was in the library with nat. kristy. selene and valerie yesterday. think i am going to noe them 4 lots better this coming 2 or 3 months as we might be doing a few projects together. well. they saw mine blog yesterday.... dunno why. but they were just laughing and laughing.

think mine blog will be exposed sooner or later. i am now wondering whether anot i shld delete or edit some of the post.

but. whatever i am blog abt is solely the emotions of me at that particularly. i might be feeling a little angry or 'buay song'. but its at that particlar time. i have no intention of personal attack what so ever. and alot of mine post. i am just trying to be funni. u noe wht i mean. just leave a tag if u are realli upset abt mine any post. i will delete it away.

all right. aniwae. its been agreed they will not let other know abt mine blog. look forward to nx wed. i wanna bring food and pinic at swee hong's lesson with them. damn fun.

meeting up with chris and yongxin yesterday made me realise something veri serious abt mine guitar playing. i am not playing the guitar spritrually. i am not playing mine pieces with emotions. tt's why i sound sucky. i am gonna go back again during mine 2 hours break tml to get a dvd from yongxin.

G3 life in UK. whahahaha. i realli cant wait to see steve vai and joe satrinia in action.!!!!! [ think i got spell joe name wrongly....]

coming to this. yar. those reading mine blog out there. i apologise for any disturb caused to your intellectual mind due to mine bad bad language. this would include grammar mistake. spelling error. tense error....etc.

emily if u got time. do help me edit. insert some bombastic bombastic vocab into mine language.

winnie. i promise reading mine blog wouldnt cause u to fail yr GP.

alvan. poly life is damn fun man. u better dun regret.

benjamin. hope u are o.k. and that u are realli cutting down on it. i just read a article that it would seriously affect yr sex life later.[ for man]. hope this can serve as a little motivation.

rachel. thx a million for yr cyber time 2 nights ago. i have never felt so fucked-up and angry in mine whole life. thx for talking to me. thx for yr songs. they are realli nice. god [ whichever god] has put challenges into our life. but. they are meant to train us to be stronger than others. dun ever let these challenges weaken u. dun hesistate to talk to mi too if u feel fucked-up. i will not hesistate to talk to u at all. thx man.

time to go to sch. take care all.