shoot, shag, marry.

sometimes, i cant help but to be disappointed in life. i cant help but compare with others what i have in life. but i am glad it only happen sometimes.~

i am extremely thankful for the good life god has blessed me with. i dare say i have met more personalities in my life as compared to the average 18 years old. people whom are really rich, poor. ( i aint comparing the 2 groups relatively here) some people whom have really sad stories in their life, some whom are really smart... the list goes on and on.

the singapore system is quite fucked-up in a way, in the sense that you are probably going to meet people of your 'kind'. for example, my secondary 1 class in catholic high school consisted of 13 year old boys with a PSLE aggregrate of 240-249. as you proceed up singapore's pyramid shape education system; that is based on merit. the person next to you PrObAbly share a relatively common background as you do. (social background, finaicial background. etc) even if the people are all rojak-up, people whom share common background are still probably going to form click and stick with each other.

basically, in singapore, merit/success (as defined by society) seem to be ranked first in our heirarchy of value. so, what are the implications?

so, people go...

eh, he is a doctor leh. eh, doctor leh....

well, doctor big shit ar? does the doctor know how to enjoy music? you dont even know what the doctor is thinking of when he is examining you..

fuck society's stereotypes.

damn it, i lost what i want to say in this post. my words are all wandering about now after talking to my mum.

anyway, my point is i have always been in the grey zone all my life. i am this guy whom is always neither here nor there. if you think you seen lots of stuff in your life... or more than me in life, think again.